☥ 02 / 05 / 2013 ☥

How about... meh.

"You're weak and you're gullible, and I don't care
You're a walking disaster, and I don't care
You cry yourself to sleep, and I don't care
You're wasting our time, and I don't care
You knew this day would come, and you did, and you really should have waited
Go cry yourself to sleep, and you should, because I'm so faded
You knew this day would come, and it did, and you really should have waited
Go cry yourself to sleep, and you should, because I'm so faded
You contradict everything, and I don't care
Your logic is twisted, and I don't care
I'll pretend to be happy, and I don't care
You cry yourself to sleep, and I don't care
You're weak and you're gullible, and I don't care
You're a walking disaster, and I don't care"

I'm going to face my demons today. 

• What's the worst thing that could happen?

  Thinking about you, what is the worst thing that could happen in your life? Seriously have a think about it. Then think why you would feel that way, for the record, I don't know is not acceptable, find your core and go in it. Once your there, go deeper 'but that's as far as it will go', no. That's how far you will only let yourself go. 
  
  Then think how insignificant that is compared to your favourite celebrity. Will they care? No. Will anyone else care? No. One reason, simply because they're not you. No-one cares about anything, unless it has a direct effect on them.
  
  Sure they can give you advice but they can't fix everything for you, they can't know how to react in that circumstance, they wouldn't know. They can't experience life from you, they're not you so why should they care?

• Slowly I'm peeling back my layers..

  Welcome to life, you was born a pure thought, as you are exposed this mode of reality which is highly based on balance you will be exposed to not just positivity but also negativity. Without happiness, how to you find sadness? Without ecstasy how to you feel dystopia? Without the sun in the day, how could we see the moon at night?
  
  Over the course of this life you have developed ways to shield yourself from certain things, these could be a various amount of things but they changed who you truly was, by shielding away from that you also hidden yourself, from you. I'm slowly peeling back the onion layers, bit by bit.

• Everything I would personally view as being wrong, will be taken into consideration. 

  Not only will I think about what I did, I will think about why I did it. What was the point? Then I'm going to think about how those actions affected others. Hold on, that's me? In another life... I'm not consciously aware because I've already gone so & so spiritual development, that life has already been lived, is currently living & dead all at the same time. 
  I need to enter my life knowing I was the best I could be, knowing I lived it loving it, knowing I can a die a happy person. These next three days shall be hard, very hard.